as you can see, i haven't been blogging for a long time. was having too much fun that i neglected my blog. anyways, i have this habit to type half way and just leave my blog post there till it's a few days old. aiyah fuck it.
i'm really sick and tired of everything. my current state is worse than the state after my o's results. i'm, you can say, fucked up.
and i'm really very annoyed with all the questions being thrown at me, like how's your appeal?which school are you posted to? what's your o's score? so how? these questions were asked like close to a hundred times! and i'm not joking, im serious about the count.
so the past few days in jurong was depressing. everything is gloomy there. the school is about to fall apart anytime, their windows are covered with inches of black dust, everybody looks so sad in there (their appearance) and the teaching staff look like fools. everything in jjc has the word, "NSK" labelled on them and that really disgust me.
their cheers are a mixture of bengs and mads' lingo. what a nice mixture.
the funny thing is that, despite everyone being dumped into this trash school, everyone seems to be happy. what happened to we, singaporeans? every jjcian reeks of the thickest body odour with a face comparable to that of the dead ah meng.
it's a pity that some innocent students from good schools like scgs and mgs conformed to jjc way of life. indoctrinated till every drop of anti-nsk blood is being drained off, unrooted from their alma mater and filled with toxic waste from jurong industrial estate.
i only did acknowledge jurong existence through the social studies textbook as an industrial estate. i never thought that a junior college even exist admist the industries.
i will never follow or do anything that has jjc on it. never. not even their cheers as their cheers are so stupid. and can you believe this? jjc 's mcs are this two really obese minahs with thick malay accent. fucking pissing.
their ignorence pisses the shit out of you and so does their impertinence. some of them dont even know that st andrew's secondary exist. furthermore, being in the sad school they are in, they still have the cheek to mock rjc and acjc on a daily basis. they deserved to be shot, ripped apart, burnt till ashes and then covered with sewage that has been left in a humid condition for a few days.
and i need to go for acjc tennis trials later on. im so screwed, i haven't played tennis in two weeks. i have seriously dug my own grave. why didnt i take up the offer of acjc in the first place? why was i so confident in my o levels? i'm so fucked now, i have no where to turn to. if acjc dont take me, will sa?
i hope God has choosen a good path for me to follow. i really need a ticket out of jurong, everyday there is just making my mental state worse. i really miss acib man :( i miss 5.05 deutronomy.
damm, everything now is such a mess. nothing is right. even a recommendation from the one of the board of governors in acs didn't work out. im not even sure whether i can cope in jc. ib seems so much easier and less stressful than jc after i went through the first one and a half month.
will another jc be as enjoyable?
i have no idea. i need to prepare myself for my fight to enter acjc later on at 5 and stop brooding over this matter. i'm so lethargic and sleepy. to be honest, i have no mood to play tennis. i even have no mood to go out. i was supposed to go out with the sas tennis guys for lam bday or out with the joey, rae, arnold and vernon but i have no mood for such stuff.
this boils down to psle if you think about it. if i had not been so complacent and not so slack, i may have did better for my psle and secure a place in acsi ip so i would not be so stressed up now. i should not even been placed in sas primary
