1st encounter with stress: reading the poem for over 10 times for 10 mins and not understanding what is the message behind it.
2nd encounter with stress: 20 mins before economics paper 1 and me still desperately finding a way to remember everything.
now, that is what happened today.
i dont feel like doing chemistry now even though the paper is tomorrow and chemistry is my weakest subject. im heading towards my doom.
some issues are starting to build inside me. i know this is annoying. from that phrase, millions of inferences can be made but yeah, just wanted to get it out of me but just want to leave it as vague as ever to emphasize on the fact that the situation is as annoying as me telling but not telling you.
ahhh, bet you dont get what i mean. really lousy phrasing up there. i just cannot br bothered to change it.
wow, really emotional here. dont know whats happening... i guess its exam stress like the start of exam stress. no wonder im so angsty. wait, no. i'm not angry. just have my periodical depression. its like a sin curve that fluctuates or like a business cycle.
i swear my studies are getting into me which is good but i dont want this whole post to be based on math and economics.
i really need to find better outputs in life. blogging does take some stress away but somehow or another im starting to feel that it is my source of depression or whatever ( i dont really think its that serious. just want to blow up the matter for the fun of it so yeah, depression).
or or or, i think my blog is where i truly understand how im feeling now. what'd you think?
okay, please bear with my long post. im still going to rant like nobody's business. but no worries, im not writing another repetitive nostalgic post. trying to think of something to blog about but i just can't. arrgh, really pissed.
oh yeah, thought of something. im going to fail my econs and english. what a day, what a day. sometimes, i hope for some divine help but i have been such an atheist these days. i bet God has marked me on his go-to-hell list and probably the buddha has prepared an extra level of hell for me go through.
if that happen, i wish i can be an immortal.
i need to find a day where i start it off with a bang and since G<0,>
for those who do not take chemistry, i bet you must be in the wtf mode but yeah, thats chemistry, the easier part if you ask me.
i think i have typed enough. my bolster wants me for afternoon nap or vice versa. whatever, im still going take a nap and then wake up in time to have dinner.
bye guys, all the best for those taking their promos.
