a cumlation of events seriously got me on my nerve. thank god burying myself in books took some angst away. arrgh. okay, actually, it took all my angst away. then i came back, saw stuff and got pissed again. hah. whats wrong.
anyway, i have no idea where im heading in my life. so i have decided that im just going to stop all other non-academic activities and focus on my goal in life. paul cheong's words keep repeating in my head everyday. "this is your career you are talking about". it suddenly dawned onto me that i have been neglecting my studies to such a large extent that i have forgotten the reason for choosing ib.
its time to get back on track. i've been fooling around for far too long.
these few days have been unkind to me. in addition to that, what i was told was presented in front of me quite evidently within this short period of time. just a mental note to stop pushing my luck and setting my expectations too high. ambiguous i am and i shall stay that way.
its getting late now. 12.25, its been a while since i stayed up this late for work. well, i guess this post shall sum up my thoughts for today.
points i need to take note: 1) stop any higher expectations because you know it will only invoke much annoyance 2) constantly remind yourself of the base and stop any great deviation from it
& if your day fucks up, close your eyes, dont blame others but just remember it was you that fucked it up.
