if you can hold on, if you can hold on, hold on...
im having a really bad cough now. dont really like it! its annoying me every minute or so. so yeah, complications here and there. no more benson babies, another shit added into my cauldron of nonsense thats been brewing every since.
oh and share a though with you. a friend told me this recently... i shall just post everything she said, "why do pple feel depressed? its cos they're not getting what they want/ things are not going their way. lame and weak because you let this fact bring you down. Right? its lame and weak of you to not find a solution..."
and i was called lame and weak for feeling that way, if you are ever wondering why "lame and weak" is in the message.
so this statement is a little applicable. well, maybe the reason of why pple do feel down is true but the second part saying lame and weak is because i do not find a solution is terribly wrong. major flaw there, friend. haha, i'm sorry.
well, the flaw is because what if you cannot find a solution and your supposingly planned out solution is not a solution after all and its just a mean of escapism. hah. denial?
i know in a few months later, i will just look back at this and laugh at myself because im already doing that to my physical diary. i looked at it yesterday and i couldnt continue reading it. either it got me feeling upset or stupid. i have no idea, my brain these days is quite weak at determining my exact feelings.
i have no idea. the world is pretty two-sided, only getting the pinch of it now. its either that or there's serious issues in me. i think the latter might be a little more appropriate or whatever. arrrgh. i have no idea. no idea at all.
the song that happens to play is so appropriate. really so appropriate. tsk. fml.
