was reading my previous posts. okay, a number of them. and yes, i sound like an emotional psychopath who is incapable of controlling whatever emotions. which is slightly true. but for the past few days, i have been pretty much normal.
a lot of work at my mum's firm but firends working with me really pulled my spirits up. kudos to you guys. im really confused now. is this a distraction/divertion from the real problem or is this actually plain recovery.
you might think this is really stupid. well, it really does sound stupid. but its not as stupid as it gets when you're in the center on it.
last night/this morning really made me think this situation is graver than i than i thought. you can say its a discovery as all along i thought what kept me from leaving was something really superficial or maybe thats what i forced myself to think to make me feel better. whatever it is, this discovery just made this problem or situation harder to rid.
i dont know whether this is good or bad. all my friends dread this. i know this is unhealthy but there's this part in me which really wants to stick with this. i keep projecting unrealistic situations in my head. its time to face facts but how do i do this? the facts are given straight into my face. i acknowledge their presence but i do nothing with it.
my mind is just not working in unison like how it used to. its jumbled up in all orientations. its like a major knot that one cannot undo. i just need my buds right now. where are you guys? pls appear or something.
