an encore of last night. another intoxicated night coupled with an empty night. i am down. i went to church today. it helped me. gave me the route that i should be following. i kept reminding myself, i go to church for God, not for rach. it helped. God helped me and took it away. but now when i am alochol intoxicated, it is the opposite. please God, give me the strength.
i am breaking down once again. mind over heart. rationale over emotional needs. i am too late anyway. what am i saying. a fool at the decision. haha. as always. a fool. forgive me, rach. i know you do not trust me. i love you. thats a lot more i want to achieve with you. but it is the past. i have decided on a wrong route. well. i dont know. i really hope you will forgive me. love you as always.
