maple and abel came today to help out again. on behalf of zhonghua carehut, our deepest thanks! the kids were asking me about whether they were coming today in the morning. haha. it is really heartfelt to see the kids being really appreciative of the jiejies and korkors. haha. arrow3xoxo.
so after carehut, three of us decided to drop over ben's for a casual visit, but what turned out was the whole bandwagon of us guys and maple at ben's by 10pm. haha. steamboat for dinner and fifa12 for dessert. i like how the meetup place has been changed from aaron's to ben's. so convenient for me. hee hee.
im dead beat from the whole day at zhonghua even though today wasnt that taxing as other days. some days, i will be so drained out that my eyes will picture my bed as a marshmellow instead of a mass of wood and goose feathers. today borders that line.
anyway, why am i wishing for something that will not happen. it is really akin to the idea of "do not ask what you do not wish to hear". indeed, i am playing with fire which will lead to an eventual burn nevertheless. a re-ignition of shit thoughts. yet, i still clench on to the positive note and hope for the impossible ending. it is funny how my optimistic side fizzled off for an instance a few months ago and now it is back. back complementing memories that manifest the regret. oh boy, look at where my cryptic side is leading me to. the deep abyss of continual down spiral, i am leading myself into - the perfect consequence of playing with dangerous thoughts.
i must put a halt to this. but how? all these negative vibes around my peers and i keep insinuating the wrong idea to be put into play. honestly, i am a sucker for such. the heart is definitely over mind in this issue which is terrible. foolish to think the unexpected when the circumstances of this issue have all been laid out all on the table. have been a fool and will be if i continue. the facts are screaming in my face. i see it, everyone sees it, everybody knows the solution to this, but it continues to be a never-ending push and pull situation in me. to put it out in simple terms, it has always been a stalemate, but stubbornness makes it seem like an advance-and-retreat strategy. i am stuck in this. okay, i have had enough of this word vomit.
but to aggravate the situation like a masochist, i shall live by this question at the moment...
does fortune favour the fool?
and postscript says, constructive feedback has collapsed terribly in reference to the previous posts. anonymity does not exist in my readers. i have spoken and so could you. the fire play starts, so whats next?
