so many thanks to maple and abel for coming down yesterday to play with the kids. oh and we were playing taboo with some of the kids and this happened...
me: (called out to Celest, one of the kids)
Celest: yah?
me: (whispered into her ear) who is kor kor apunehneh?
Celest: (pointed at abel)
HAHAHA. and then she told weijie and weijie started doing an indian dance in front of abel. hahahahaha. i simply love the kids at zh.
a good break for me today to stay home and recuperate. so many days of sleep debt is making me go cranky. thank God i settled it all today. and i can finish up my book today. hee hee.
anyway, was taking a dump and i realised a great weakness in me. i think i have done so before, but it just slipped out of my mind. hmm, i will go into a thought frenzy when im taking a dump or just before i sleep. i call that, self-evaluation period. well, usually, the thoughts before i sleep are more fruitful in the sense that they materialise into something that i can work on as compared to the ones out from the dump period. so it explains why i am typing this out because it is so RARE.
okay, back to the juice. so i am a very pmsy person. i have bad moodswings and when i say bad, they are so bad that it makes me a really difficult person around my friends or anyone closer than that. backtracked my memory and spotted snippets of ex-gfs saying the same thing. my sister supports the idea that i have bad moodswings too. haha. okay, this isnt a haha matter, it is a problem :(
so let me explain the memories in words from the girlfriends. lol.
6 years ago:
esther: "why does it feel like you have changed so much over a night?"
4 years ago:
jing: "are you alright?"
me: "yeah im fine, thats something bugging me but after i get over it, it will be okay"
jing: "but it is not okay for me, can you tell me?"
me: "nahh, its fine, im okay"
10 months ago:
@ novena, when i got a sudden moodswing
rach: "are you okay"
me: "im fine"
rach: "can you tell me whats wrong? is it me?"
me: "no, its not you"
okay, those may not be the exact words, but i am sure it is the closest to actually happened. so analysis time. i am a pain in the ass at times towards the closest person during periods of my life. which actually sucks. 6 years ago till now. have not changed a bit. smlj. it is actually quite depressing. lol.
YOU ARE MY CINEMA, I CAN WATCH YOU FOREVER.
had to type that. urrgh, there were times i tried to conceal my moodswings, but it always burst out of the facade that i put up. and when i do explain, it makes me sound stupid and honestly, there isnt an immediate solution other than letting time dissolve it. at times, i used the food coma excuse to get away with it and it actually works. haha. however, at times, it is really food coma! okay, what else? hmm, i always use the tired excuse that. i used it so frequently that its cover got blown off a few times. haha.
INTERACTIVE PORTION FOR YOU BLOGDERS
aiyoh. if you are reading this. give me a solution. drop me a private message or something so that no one will know. and if you think im being stupid because this post is public and everyone knows it. im telling you, you are terribly wrong, this blog has such a small audience that i can count them with my fingers.
so help me, because if you are reading this, you are probably someone that i trust, someone close to me or even better, someone who was close to me ( which means you know my flaws better than anyone if not there would not be a fall out between us, you know who you are).
just to make this sound even more freaky. when i say i know my audience, i really know who.
shit just got real, baby.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. that was a blockbuster finisher line that i really had to put to end this post. cheers guys. remember the request above!
