what an eventful night at zouk. my nose is as red as rudolf the reindeer and i went through another life moment. it all happened when ben's car smashed against a road barrier. when the impact came, my mind was a void. but after that moment, i was thinking to myself, what if i died at the point, what have i accomplished as of now? and it dawned upon me that i have done nothing. nothing.
that really bothered my throughout the whole of zouk later and coupled with the fact of spurts of difficulty in breathing, it really made my initial experience at the table horrible. i kept trying to think of events in my life what hold some weightage but nothing materialised. i was lost for the moment. maybe it is the alcohol working. i dont know. all wells.
well, i really hope josh is okay from all the alcohol he's been consuming over the past hour and ben too. poor boy is in just guilt smashing against the road barrier. but thank God, we are all alright. i dont know how many mental prayers i made thanking God for looking over us when the car hit the barrier. we are blessed to be alright.
okay, perhaps i am getting too emotional. damm it, told myself not to drink. i knew this was coming.
