spent 2 hours in the library trying my very best to sieve out words from more words and words and words and words and words and words. kill me now. 

End product: one filled A4 sheet and frustration (which is not enough, i think?) 

then, it proceeded to 30 mins of pure cursing and swearing (in my head of course, i was still in the lib) at the medical programme which the school has 'conscientiously' revised for students like me. 

10 mins of cooling down followed. 

1 min decision that i was mentally exhausted. 

packed up and begun my trudge home.

surprisingly, the walk actually did more good than bad for once. cleared my mind and came back to a bigger enclosed space (as compared to the study cubicle). The hate manifested once again and i'm here venting my frustration in this white box. yet another white canvas to be filled with words... 

now my appetite is growing. i yearn for food. all i wish for now is for someone to feed me as i release my venom upon blogspot. wishes are wishes, that's not going to happen. doubt my chairs and tables will be much assistance in feeding me. blearh. 

i feel like cutting out my liver and throwing it out of the window. what a sight. this is how i imagine it would be. 

passerby: wtf is that 

me: (opens the window wider) thats my fucking liver yo! you take it and spin it like a yo-yo! mince it up and put it in your froyo! 

... zzz...zzz...zzz...zzz...zzz... 

corn corn corn corn corn chips doritos open the cupboard open the fridge hummus with the corn chips yum yum yum tum tum tum oh no just narrating in my head need to move to get those chips so much inertia dont think i can do it hunger overbearing need those chips okay i shall go its getting too cold heater maybe no no no chips chips chips get those chips headache why headache now maybe screen too bright wait CHIPS. 

okay time to eat chips.